Hello everyone! I’m back with another post for the week. In this blog I wanted to talk more about your mental state when you decide to start a healthy lifestyle.
When I first started noticing a change in my weight I didn’t really know how to feel besides depressed, or what to do besides eat more. I had never experienced such a drastic change in my body and I constantly felt bloated and lethargic.
I would go through a viscous cycle of binge eating (eating a lot in a short period of time) to basically starving myself which only made me feel worse. I felt like I was digging myself a deeper hole and I just couldn’t climb out of it.
The problem was, my weight gain was taking such a toll on me I started to hate my appearance. I can specifically remember coming home for winter break and almost none of my clothes fitting. I literally despised myself for letting me get to the point I was at.
When I went on vacation, there was no cheat meals for me. I punished myself by not eating what I wanted and it made me ill and overall just a buzzkill to whoever was around me. If I did have a cheat meal, I punished myself by doing intense cardio even if I didn’t feel like it.
I was working out every day twice a day and not eating near enough. While I was seeing results, I didn’t like how I was constantly at war with my mind. I knew there had to be a way to achieve my goals in a healthy mental state.
I reevaluated my daily routine and figured out why I couldn’t ever feel satisfied. When you make a huge lifestyle change as I did, you can’t go in full force and expect to see results immediately. I went from 0-100 really quick and went on this hardcore diet when I should have eased into changing small things in my daily routine to make them habits.
I made myself go to the gym everyday even when my body was telling me no. Now, if I don’t want to go to the gym one day (or two) I’m not going to and thats okay. Instead of punishing myself and not eating what I want from time to time, I have cheat meals on the weekend and go all out and don’t regret a single bit of it.
Results are about consistency and small victories. I cannot stress enough how important it is to love yourself in whatever skin you’re in before you try to change it all in a day. Listen to your body. If its hungry, feed it. You shouldn’t have to fear food and thats something I never thought I would do but it happened.
I wanted to write this to say love yourself. It took me three years to get to a good state physically and mentally. Don’t punish yourself for fall backs, reward yourself for the little goals you will accomplish along the way.
If you want the cake, eat it. Just drink some water with it to balance it out!
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